Restoring the Fallen Leaders

A safe, completely confidential space for leaders from all walks of life—including corporate executives, community figures, and ministry professionals—who are secretly struggling with guilt, shame, moral failure, or hidden burdens that have derailed their lives. Hosted by Raenel, who shares her raw story of surviving 27 years in a same sex relationship before being rescued by the radical, relentless grace of God. If the weight of condemnation is destroying your life, your career, or your relationships, this is your safe harbor. Step out of the isolation, break the cycle of self-sabotage, and discover a path to true inner healing, identity, and restoration. Because your story is not over... it's just beginning.

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Oct 13, 2026

10 min

Addiction isn't a disease you manage for life. It's what the Bible calls iniquity. When I met the Lord in 1979, I was high every day, except the day after I was born again. A treatment center or rehab may give you behavior modification, but only God can make you a new creation. Without a revelation, there is no restoration.
Scripture: Psalm 107:20, Isaiah 53:5-6, Revelation 21:5
Apply for the 30-Day Restoration Program and connect with me: www.raenel.com

Oct 13, 2026

10 min

Oct 13, 2026

12 min

A Christian woman stopped talking to me the day she found out I was a former LGBT. It's happened over and over. There is not one of us who was not the prodigal son. Judging the fallen isn't safe ground. It's the same ground we all fell on. It's a lonely life, but I'm not alone. Jesus is the only One who came after me.
Scripture: Luke 15, Romans 7:24-25, Galatians 6:7
Apply for the 30-Day Restoration Program and connect with me: www.raenel.com

Oct 13, 2026

12 min

Oct 13, 2026

16 min

Every time I've stepped out in ministry, I've never known what it would look like. I step out, and He shows me the way. That's faith by works, done from a place of rest. Bible people miss it all the time, but they keep going. You are Bible people.
Scripture: James 2:18, Habakkuk 2:2, Romans 8:28
Apply for the 30-Day Restoration Program and connect with me: www.raenel.com

Oct 13, 2026

16 min

Sep 29, 2026

13 min

He opened the door, and I saw darkness wafting out from behind him as I entered. In 1979, right after I was saved, I came face to face with the neighbor next door. He did not move. He did not say a thing. He was waiting for me to react to fear. Fear is a door that demands a reaction to its feeling. Faith is not a feeling. I had peace, and I walked out.
Apply for the Restoring the Fallen Leaders 30-Day Intensive at raenel.com.

Sep 29, 2026

13 min

Sep 29, 2026

12 min

She shape-shifted right before my eyes.
In a mental ward, a woman's face was not her face. I told her, "In the name of Jesus, I am not afraid. I know who you are." In the Philippines, a minister told me, "Don't ever let the devil show off." I've never forgotten it. Deliverance is all through the Gospels. He did it for Mary Magdalene. He did it for me. And He'll do it for you.
Apply for the Restoring the Fallen Leaders 30-Day Intensive at raenel.com
 

Sep 29, 2026

12 min

Sep 29, 2026

10 min

I had traded Jesus for a moment of lust with a woman. Redemption would come 27 years later. At the Black and White Party, an LGBTAIDS fundraiser in Las Vegas, a young man pulled me up on stage to dance and couldn't believe I was a woman. That night I knew I was in the wrong world. I wanted out, but had nowhere else to go. Everyone, when they realize they are lost, hopes they'll be found. That was me.
Apply for the Restoring the Fallen Leaders 30-Day Intensive at raenel.com.

Sep 29, 2026

10 min